Current State of the Crown: Victim Blaming, Noticeable Progress and Plans to Move

Before anything else, I just want to say that I appreciate all the messages I've been getting lately. I was so scared of judgment that I can seriously count on my fingers the number of people that I told about what is really going on with me. And even within that group, less than half knows what I'm going through. I'd like to say I've never missed a day of blogging ever since I got diagnosed, and these blog posts are connected with my Facebook profile. So everytime I posted here, it gets shared to my social media accounts. For some reason however, a photo album of the blog pictures get created rather than being under the Featured Image blog photo. Of course, my Facebook friends are seeing it and I've been receiving quite a lot of comments and personal messages about it. I really do appreciate every single message (and I am surprised I am receiving this much support), but messages like this just doesn't sit well with me.

    "Kung ano-ano kasi ginagawa mo sa buhok mo kaya nagtatampo." (Your hair is mad at you because you do so much to it.)

    "Ayan kase kulay ka ng kulay ng buhok mo." (That's the effect of always coloring your hair.)

    "Kung ano ano kasing kaartehan ginagawa mo kaya nagkakaganyan katawan mo." (You're too vain that's why that's why that's happening to you.)

    "Baka naman kung ano ano pinapahid o iniinom mo kaya nagkakaganyan." (You're using too many cosmetics or taking too many unnecessary things which is why that's happening.)
Or something along those lines.

Look, not that I want to look ungrateful to the attention and support that I am currently experiencing, but I would love it if people would ask first what's happening and why it's happening rather than immediately pointing fingers. It does nothing to improve the situation. It just makes you look like a jerk, which I know you're not.

I know you're trying to tell me that you care and hope for my wellbeing, but saying those things just doesn't do it. There's absolutely nothing wrong with just saying "I'm here for you." or "You can get through this." or any other paraphrasing or translation of that statement. That alone is enough, and much more appreciate than you blaming me for a condition whose reasons can't even be explained by science.

With that rant aside, I'd like to report a pretty awesome day today. I was able to drop by the grocery store and purchase a few things that I wanted and needed, like food and spices. I bought rice, bread, cheese, sweet potatoes, cooking oil, bullion cubes, sesame seeds, paprika, ginger and turmeric powder. Then I also bought some more vegetables in the wet market near my apartment and I cooked pinakbet. I wish I took photos but it doesn't really seem photo-friendly for me. That didn't stop me from finishing everything though. I don't know if it was because I was hungry or because I made good pinakbet on my first try.

I made some spiced tea to go with my healthy lunch too. I brewed green tea and added turmeric, ginger, cinammon and a tiny bit of brown sugar. I know I said I wouldn't try anything else aside from the medication I am currently on, but I don't think it would hurt to try and live a little healthier. I also really liked this tea that I had it twice. I don't know what to call it though. Spiced Tea?

Another thing I'd also like to share is the amazing boost of self-love and care that I experienced. Not only did I cook a healthy lunch and prepare herbal tea, I also took a shower twice in a row since my hair started falling out.

I became wary of taking daily showers when my hairfall intensified because I was scared of more hair falling out. I know, I was instructed not to skip showers to heal the dandruff that was starting on my scalp when I got diagnosed, but I just can't. Everytime I see and feel the hair strands shedding I just don't want to mess with it. That's why when I got the courage to take a shower, I did. I made sure to use moisturizer afterwards too and I felt really refreshed. I also made sure all traces of makeup was removed and used a sheet mask instead of just using a makeup wipe and going to sleep. I think yesterday was my best sleep in a long time. Not to mention -- my hair fall significantly lessened today.

I think it's both the effect of my thyroid levels normalizing and the corticosteroids calming down my immune system. I'm not complaining. I'm enjoying effects of actually feeling normal again. I wasn't able to get my vital stats checked, but I promise I do those tomorrow.

I'm also planning to move my blog to Blogger, because I do want to monetize my blog without having to purchase a hosting plan on Wordpress. I have tried to figure out how to do it, but I think it will all boil down to moving it manually, post by post -- which I'm not too excited about, but I think this would be a great way to revamp and streamline my blog. I will keep you all posted, as always.

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