My name is Janessa, and as a girl, I daydream, and like other girls, I dream about having a daughter.

 

My name is Janessa, and as a girl, I daydream, and like other girls, I dream about having a daughter.

I am also a teenager, and I feel suffocated with the way my elders guide, or should I say, control me and my life. Sometimes I want to commit suicide because it's 'just too much.'. Then I see my dreams on my bulletin board and I read them out loud.

"Someday I'll have my book published."

"Someday I'll have a million subscribers on Youtube."

"Someday I'll have a daughter, and I'll give her the very best of the best."

That very sentence made me smile and look faraway and think about my future little girl.

She'll be a real beauty. She'll have my little girl eyes in the colour of her father's, my long straight black hair, a few freckles here and there, pretty doll lips, and a pretty complexion just like her fathers'... I'll enroll her to different classes like piano, ballet, painting, drama, and many more.. She'll be my perfect little angel, and I will give her everything she wants and everything I never experienced...

But then, I watched a video about girls... girls who were forced to join pageants and be prettied up... and I saw their pretty faces smiling at the camera... Such pretty, lovely girls...

But something was wrong.

No matter how bright their smiles may be...

Their eyes still looked sad...

Forced...

Tired...

Scared...

and pleading...

Then I asked myself, do I want this for my child? Is this want I am planning for my future little girl? Is this what YOU are planning for YOUR child?

Hi, I want the Best for my Child.