Showing posts from January, 2018

CSC: Confidence, Support groups, and General Updates | Alopecia Areata

It was definitely an internal battle earlier.

To shower or not to shower?

Showering still won though. I know I have to, so I will. And I did. Yay to having the courage to shower three days in a row! I think it also helps that I am seeing less and less shedding every time I comb my hair. It's now almost back to the amount of hairfall I get when I was still "normal".

I now have more courage to wear my bonnet -- not that I have a choice, but I've now learned to own it than hide it. I've even learned how to style it better! I'm actually looking forward to maybe buying a couple more, just so I have some variety.

Surprisingly, I also have been liking the taste of the Spiced Tea that I made. So much so that I brewed a liter of and I've slowly been drinking it. I'll share the benefits and the recipe within the week.

For those who stumbled on this blog looking for more information about Alopecia Areata and perhaps for support, I'd like to share a Facebook…

Current State of the Crown: Victim Blaming, Noticeable Progress and Plans to Move

Before anything else, I just want to say that I appreciate all the messages I've been getting lately. I was so scared of judgment that I can seriously count on my fingers the number of people that I told about what is really going on with me. And even within that group, less than half knows what I'm going through. I'd like to say I've never missed a day of blogging ever since I got diagnosed, and these blog posts are connected with my Facebook profile. So everytime I posted here, it gets shared to my social media accounts. For some reason however, a photo album of the blog pictures get created rather than being under the Featured Image blog photo. Of course, my Facebook friends are seeing it and I've been receiving quite a lot of comments and personal messages about it. I really do appreciate every single message (and I am surprised I am receiving this much support), but messages like this just doesn't sit well with me.

    "Kung ano-ano kasi ginagawa mo …

Current State of the Crown: Rollercoasters, Goals, and Expensive Wigs

I spent the weekend in an emotional rollercoaster. I spent Friday extremely productive. I booked an appointment with a dentist (this is long overdue) and an gynecologist (because it's about damn time and I've read about the possible links of AA and the female parts). I finished about half of my laundry load, I deep cleaned my bathroom and I tried new (vegetarian!!) recipes.

Then from that lovely light feeling of productivity, I fell in a deep ugly crying session. I cried about my hair (surprise surprise), asking the cliche "Why me?", mourning for my hair generally. Then I fell asleep and when I woke up I drafted about six blog posts.

Pretty much still losing quite a bit of hair at this point. I fell asleep without even changing into lounge clothes so of course I wasn't able to shower. I woke up with an itchy scalp which went away after my first corticosteroids dosage. Fucking little pills punch a bitter explosion. I either take it with milk or a literal sugar sp…

My Ideal Week | Lifestyle 2018

I came across Michael Hyatt’s blog post about making an ideal week, suppose you have 100% control of how your time is spent. The idea is that since time is a resource, it will be treated as a resource, and is allotted to certain “departments”.

As Michael Hyatt explained it,

    My Ideal Week—the week I would live if I could control 100% of what happens—is divided into a simple grid. Each day has a theme. In addition, each day is segmented according to a specific focus area.
My week looks entirely different now, compared to how my spreadsheet would have looked like a few months back. I actually made another one that’ll show how may have looked like if I went back to school this semester. (I filed for a leave of absence -- that’s another blog post)

Anyway, let’s focus on the spreadsheet that I’ll actually be using.

My day theme is right above the days of the week.

My Sundays are dedicated to tying up loose ends (errands, week calibration) and taking a bit of time for myself (devotion, …

Current State of the Crown: Bonnets, Musings and Little Steps

I have come to the point that I can no longer style my hair to hide the spots.

Still, the fear of people knowing or being curious strikes fear in my heart.

Fear of judgment. Fear of gossip. Fear of pity.

But what can I do?

Not covering it up would invite much more questions.

I've been listening to a motivational podcasts lately and one thing stands out.

    Fear becomes progress and struggle is beautiful.

I have an ongoing battle within me, the good wolf and the bad wolf. Both of them ready to kill each other any minute of the day. Both are mortally wounded but neither have any indication of backing down.

Spotify: Motivational Podcast Playlist by Landon Lynn Clark

Everytime I listen to these podcasts, I see in my mind's eye that the good wolf is growing bigger, stronger, fiercer than the bad wolf. Everytime I get lost in my thoughts, the bad wolf growls louder and prouder. There have been multiple times the bad wolf has grown so big the good wolf looked like a newborn pup.


Current State of the Crown: Foundations of the Battleground

So I decided to make a blog series about my experience with Alopecia Areata, starting with out with my hair's current state and some progress pictures.

I will also be sharing with you my trichoscopy photos and how my medication is affecting me. I'm hoping to make this a daily post, but will most likely be an every other day thing. I still want to post about different things and I have a couple of posts that I am pretty excited to post about.

So, let's get started.

As mentioned in my previous post, I was diagnosed with Alopecia Areata on the 9th of January, 2017 by my father's cousin, Dr. Felix Paolo Lizarondo. If you need a friendly, understanding and knowledgeable dermatologist based here in the Philippines, I highly recommend him!

Just a heads up, some people may be a bit grossed out by the next pictures, which are my trichoscopy photos.

Trichoscopy is a hair and scalp evaluation technique which helps in distinguishing conditions like Alopecia Areata and and Telogen …

I have Alopecia Areata | Life 2018

The hardest part is overcoming the fear.

My fear.

My fear of judgment, of other people's opinion, of how they see me.

I am going for my dermatologist appointment later, my grandparents are coming with me. The two people that I have disregarded and taken for granted before are now the two people I can't live without. They are my rocks, my foundations. I'm glad they will be with me later.

My doctor will be a relative of ours, Dr. Paolo Lizarondo. He's my grandmother's nephew. I contacted him and sent him the photos that I have been taking to record what's going on with me. His first guesses were Telogen Effluvium or Diffuse Alopecia Areata. I'm praying that it is Telogen Effluvium, because it means that it's temporary. I would just need to determine my...

Update: I have Diffuse Alopecia Areata.

I was not able to finish this blog post due to time constraints, but let's continue where I left off.

Alopecia areata is an auto-immune disease that affects a…

How to Auto-Reload your BPI Amore Card | Finances 2018

I discovered something new today!

I have been wanting to setup my payroll account to "auto-save" but I have not been able to get around to setting it up. Then, upon playing around the BPI site, I discovered that I can just use my debit card to save up! I have been using it as an "extra" savings card, but I think this is a great way to build a savings fund as well!

By extra savings, I remove any amount that I can't withdraw from the amount I get bi-monthly on my payroll account and then subtract it from my actual pay. I transfer the difference to my debit card.

For example, I earn 10367. I can only withdraw in either 1000s, 500s or 100s. I can't withdraw 67 so that goes to my debit card. That way I have a constant flow to my savings account. This is only one of the ways I save up, and I'll share more tips and tricks with you in the future.

Anyway, enough of that ramble. I'm sure you clicked this to learn about how to setup the auto-transfer. This is…

Trust the Process | Life 2018

I cut my hair again.

This time I took off about three inches. Ends are more uneven than ever, of course, but honestly I give zero fucks at this point. I'm just cutting it little by little so that when I do the big chop in about two months time, it won't matter that much. I plan to get a pixie cut once I have enough regrowth to work with. I hope I get enough regrowth.

I can feel more stubble on my scalp, but at this point I don't know if it's actually regrowth or just broken ends. I really need to schedule a specialist appointment so that I know what I'm working with. I'll deal with that after payday.

My hair is still falling out in clumps. I have not washed my hair in 3 days. I don't know when I'll actually wash my hair again. I'm scared. Terrified. I don't want to comb my hair before I shower and see clumps on the floor, wash my hair and see more hair flowing to the drain and yet more hair shedding when I dry it. So I resort to putting my hair…

2018 New Year Resolutions | Life 2018


Wow, what an upgrade!

In case you're not sure, this is my first "legit" blog post here. I do have a few other entries posted, but those are just extras. This, however, is part my January 2018 lineup. I put in a little more effort into my posts now, and I hope you enjoy reading. Let me know in the comments below what your 2018 new year resolutions are if you have them!

Cheers to a prosperous 2018!

Hypothyroidism and I

I’ve had hypothyroidism since I was 12 – maybe 11.

I don’t really remember.

But my thyroid issue has been with me since I was baby.

I have hereditary hyperthyroidism – meaning, I inherited the condition from my mother, who has the same condition. My mother had her thyroid gland removed when I was a kid. I don't really have much memory about it. I just remember her wearing a bandana on her neck to hide and protect the surgery wound. The scar can't be seen that much today.

My condition was discovered when I was around 10 years old, and I was treated for it immediately. At this point, I already had a literal lump in my throat, and it was growing quickly.  My thyroid was producing way too much thyroid hormones and it was swelling and affecting my whole system. I was in danger of heart attacks because of my increased heart rate. Dehydration, because I was going to the bathroom way too often than needed and I was sweating – a lot. I was also having sleep issues and I was losing wei…