It’s been a long time since I was made a post like this.. I don’t even remember trying to post like this, like actually trying to put my thoughts on paper. I don’t even see myself as someone who can organize my thoughts.

It’s over. I broke it off. The sad thing is I don’t even know why. So I guess that’s a fuckup on my part. Getting carried away by my emotions. I don’t even know what we fought about, or why. It doesn’t seem like a big deal anymore. But I guess things are like that. Things have to end. Even if you’ve given your absolute best.

I guess I have to start learning how to be alone again. Literally, irrevocably alone. Just like the old times. All I need to think about is myself and no one else. That should be good. This time I can focus on myself. Too bad I’m starting to feel like this is a bad idea and that this is the start of something that feels very familiar.

Like that point in my life that I had to be taken into a hospital because of my pride and stupidity. I guess the what I have to make sure of this time is that I make damn well sure I head for another part of the hospital.

*sigh* I’s love to say “| wonder” but I really don’t. I know why, and I know how. It’s because of stupid, stupid pride that I’ve lost the people I love. Stupid, stupid pride that makes me build walls upon walls upon walls. But I guess that’s how I am, and it’s really hard to change that. I thought I found someone who can at least understand and work through it, but I guess not. So that leads me here. And it leads to the end.

So farewell dreams of forever. I knew from the start you didn’t exist.
I know, I know, I'm a bit late into the game, but my school year starts in September, so I didn't really want to rush buying school supplies just to post it early. I also wanted to make sure that I'm going to get the items that I'm actually going to use and I curated my list very strictly. I went from having about 50 items on my list down to 21 items. I'm also planning to get additional items, but they are not priorities right now.

ICYMI, I am a working student, I'm taking up AB Humanities at University of Asia and the Pacific and I'm currently a sophomore. I also got all items from National Bookstore, because it's my favorite store ever!

With that said, here are the items I got;

Notebooks - ₱26.00 each

I have 4 classes this semester (Theatre, Modern Literature, Asia Pacific Studies - Japan and Philosophy Anthropology) and I'm also planning to take up Basic Fashion Styling at SoFA Design Institute which is why I have 5 notebooks. 4 for Acads and one for my extra-curricular class.

I chose this notebooks because I like the size and line spaces because my handwriting is on the big side. The price is just a plus. I'm also not too partial with the design because I'm planning to revamp my notebooks.

Yellow Pad - ₱34.50

Of course, yellow pad. The ultimate basic necessity of a college student.

Plastic Envelope - ₱29.75

To keep all my loose papers.

Index Cards - ₱26.00

I use index cards for everything, from flash cards to notes to additional space in my planner.

Grab & Go pack - ₱100

You guys, this is heaven sent! I literally had most of these items on my list, and when I saw this I immediately got it, because I'd rather pay 100 for 3 items on my list that 300+ for those items from different brands.

Pens - ₱9 each

Of course, I had to get my favorite pens of all time. I like these because they're cheap, but the quality is up to par with expensive pens. I bought several because I always loose these pens.

Correction Tape - ₱25.75

Gotta correct them mistakes y'all.

Colored Paper - ₱15.50 each and Glue Stick - ₱22.00

I'm going to use these to decorate my notebooks, along with any other items I find in my craft box. I'll do a blog post on that as well.

Pencil Case - Gift

I was looking for a basic,. standard, no frills and cheap pencil case but I wasn't able to find any that fit my budget and aesthetic, so I just decided to use this watermelon pouch that I had lying around. My uber trendy friend, Jerrylyn, gave this to me about 2 Christmases ago. I miss you!

And that concludes my Back to School - School Supplies haul! I also made a haul video, so be sure to check that out! Next post will be all about my makeup and lifestyle haul, so be sure to stay tuned for that!

What's your favorite school supply item? Let me know in the comment section below!


Let's try something different..

Like, live blogging. Blogging on the spot. Right now it's August 29, 2017, 1:08AM. I'm charging my Fitbit Blaze, drinking coffee and working.. or not. There's no queue right now which is why I can write down my thoughts. I'm a customer service representative, and all I can say is that it totally changed the way I think about cashiers, waiters, etc. If I was nice before, I'm positively angelic towards them now, specially to those who does their work right. If not, well I give them a piece of my mind. I've learned that it's not just about providing what the customer wants, but how you say it as well. I'm not saying that I'm all compassionate and understanding and peaceful whatever now, but I've improved. I still have my privileged Catholic school girl provinciana attitude though.

I can't believe I'm saying this, but I actually miss brewed coffee. The coffee that Papa brews back when we still lived together. If I remember correctly, it's a mix of Arabica and Dark Roast.. I can drink that without sweetener or anything. The coffee I brew at home tastes horrendous even with sweetener and creamers so I just stopped drinking it altogether. I now get my coffee fix from either McDonald's when I'm in school or the coffee vendo machine here at work.

1:31AM - I logged a 30-minute break to stretch my legs and get my second cup of coffee. I use this tumbler from Starbucks which hold 473 ml.. Which means 3 servings from the coffee vendo machine. Yep, I'm that addicted to caffeine. I love how it's all foamy like a store bought latte, but that's what happens when you boil milk and pour it with a slow steady stream. I also took the time to play my favorite mobile game of the month, Bloons TD. I used to play this when I was a kid, when y8.com was all the rage. It's same game, but it's better. Even my boyfriend's hooked!



2:30AM - Now I'm planning my to-do list for later. Here's what's on my list right now;

8/29
File Pag Ibig Loan - ETA 3 weeks - for savings
Home
Film Hauls
Wash Dishes
Take out trash
Pack clothes

I plan to stay at the office for the rest of the week so that I can make use of the gym. I miss going to gym. I miss the times when I'm able to micro manage myself.. I really really want to bring that back.

3:25AM - I just realized that my outfit consists of a hoodie, jogging pants and well worn rubber shoes. You can either say this is a super fitness or super slob. I've had these jogging pants from Sassa and they are so comfortable I'd wear them everyday if I can.

3:34AM - As per my MFP logs, I have now consumed 2/3 of my allocated daily calorie intake just by coffee alone. If I could just drink black coffee, that would surely go down considerably. You know what's funny? I think something is really wrong with me. Like, inside me. I think I have an eating disorder.. I think this started when I started college. According to my grandmother, I was never a picky eater, I was always eating but I never gained any weight. Then when I got diagnosed hyperthyroidism and was treated as with hypothyroidism, a shift in me happened and I started being super self conscious. I literally shrunk before their eyes in college and checking back I look really tiny in college. I gained weight when I started going out with my current boyfriend.. and I think I can eat with no problem at all, but when I start eating I don't know how to stop. And when I stop I don't know how to start again. I can't rest either when I don't know what's my current weight or how many calories I currently have. I've looked up eating disorders but I can't place myself in any category. I think it would be best if I see someone, but I'm scared of the stigma of going to psychiatrists here in the Philippines. Like when I had my first OB visit, it's like the doctor was expecting me to blurt out that I'm pregnant or something and she was giving me stink eye. Then when I said I was there for UTI issues, she condescendingly asked if I was doing the deed. I'm not, but but if I was, is it wrong? You can say that I never went back to her. Currently looking for non-judgmental doctors covered by my health card.

Anyway, I want to start a fitness routine soon. Exercise, food, sleep, water.. all that. I'll keep you posted. I'm so inspired by the blogs I've been reading lately which is why I want to try it out for myself. I'll start on September 1st.

4AM - I've been checking out possible diets and I found the Oatmeal diet. Here's how to do it according to diet-blog.com

Phase One

    Dieters eat nothing but oatmeal for the first week.
    You can eat ½ cup of oatmeal for each meal, which may be combined with a ½ cup of skim milk if desired.
    Only whole oatmeal is allowed, not instant oatmeal.
    Instant oatmeal and granola bars should be avoided for the first seven days.
    Calorie consumption for the first seven days should be between 900-1200 calories per day.

Phase Two

    For the next 30 days, dieters continue having ½ cup of oatmeal three times a day in addition to their regular diet.
    Instant oatmeal is now permitted.
    Calories may now be increased slightly to 1000-1300 per day.
    A morning snack of a ½ cup of fruit and an afternoon snack of ½ cup raw vegetables are allowed.

This is probably the friendliest diet I can manage for now, so I'll try it and see how it goes. I'll also go back to the gym.

Am I looking to lose weight? Not really. More like lower my body fat percentage. I don't like being thin and flabby. Yes, I didn't know that was possible until I saw myself in the mirror.

6AM - So my hunch was right. There is something bad that's going to happen. I'm basically looking at a 4-day suspension which may or may not jeopardize my schooling. I can't deny it, there's no way that I can say I didn't do it to myself, because I did and the records show it. I know my fault, and I know what to do to avoid that fault.



Confusing? Let's back track.

I made the same mistake thrice. In real life, that's okay. There's forgiveness, and there's unlimited options for change and improvement. In the corporate world, not so much. Everything is put on paper and forgiveness is measured by a set period of time and hierarchy. Right now I have nine months to achieve forgiveness.

I can't help but think.. is this God's way of telling me that I have too much on my plate and that I'm spreading myself too thin? I mean, if this pushes through, I will get suspended, and in turn cut off my TIU privileges. Which would free up time and money for me.. Which can help me achieve two major goals that I have (being debt-free and growing my blog and Youtube channel).. But my status as a working student is what I believe to be my edge among others. It's what makes me special.








I don't want to lose that edge. Right now that's what's grounding me and making feel that I'm doing something with my life instead of just being a millenial zombie who works to survive because I thought I was strong enough to cut myself off from my parents.

So why did I let it go to waste?

I started with dropping a course and then being truant altogether. Now it will be taken away from me totally.



I don't want that to happen. I feel like I have adjusted myself and done what I can.. but I guess it isn't enough and I didn't try hard enough and now I'm paying the price. I have fixed my attendance, my satisfaction, my efficiency, all the other factors. I was flying high until two days ago. I feel like I've shot down. I was already celebrating and praising myself and thinking of how I'll reward myself and now this. Distraught would be a light term to describe what I'm feeling right now.

I thought I was finally reaping the benefits of positive thinking for my goal of passing my metrics.. but then it's not? I would blog about this, but I don't have access right now so please forgive my ramblings. I just don't know how to proceed at this point.

Although I have my Plan B's ready.. I would much rather go with Plan A.





Plan A consists of the Law of Attraction. I will focus on not getting a suspension. Not getting my TIU privileges taken away. Not committing any similar mistake. Instead, I will focus on being debt-free with a deadline -- before my 22nd birthday. I will focus on getting 5,000 blog followers and Youtube subscribers by August 2018. I will focus on getting a Baleen pay-out every month starting August 2017. I will focus on passing all my classes and being on top of the class. I will use the power of the universe to achieve my goals. If it requires that I micro manage myself, make sure that I know where I am every minute of every day and record it, I will. If it requires that I start right at this very moment, I will.

I will start with envisioning myself a year from now. Where do I see myself by August 29, 2018?

8:45AM - My shift's almost done, and I'm packing up. I've been listening to various motivational speeches and I'll full of positivity right now. I sincerely believe that I can make my goal changes in my life. That alone is enough for me right now.




This is quite a lengthy post, and I appreciate that you've reached this point. Feel free to share your thoughts in the comments below, I'm always listening.
I literally have two hours of sleep. Running on energy from poison, also known as energy drinks.

I'm wide awake though. And super sleepy. So how do we make sense of that? My mind is alert but my body is screaming for some rest?

I'm not sure why I wasn't able to sleep earlier, maybe because I was playing and watching videos on my phone?

Yeah, maybe..

And yes, not one item got crossed off my to-do list. I'm so fucking great, yeah? In my defense, I filed for an immediate unpaid leave on Friday so I have an additional day off.. plus the Incorporation Rites thingy was moved next week due to Eid'l Adha (yay double pay! Edit: Not really, my IUL falls on that day. At least it won't be unpaid anymore though). Then, have classes the day after that, and an event the day after that. Oh, did I mention that I also have a date exactly seven days from now?

Yeah, looks like my 2nd week of September is pretty jam-packed. I'm not complaining though. Since I'm going to try and vlog (and upload, so help me God) everyday for September, it's good to have a lot of scheduled so I can make my videos interesting. Right?

Going to a meeting, be right back..

Meeting has ended. It's all about stuff I can't really blog about, so there.

I just finished eating an apple too and I feel so fat. I don't even know why. I haven't eaten anything at all before. Is it bloating? I usually get this when I suddenly eat after not eating. Now I feel dizzy. What the fuck?

I've been thinking of my blog posting schedule.. It always seems delayed by a whole day and I'm thinking of trying to post within the day so that it would look cohesive. I don't know. I guess I'll just have to try later and see if that will work for me.

Today's the day that I can (finally) file my HDMF Loan, because our HR office was closed for some reason. I'll also try and get another thing finished before I have to go and meetup a friend to talk about her (and hopefully mine) upcoming class. Remember when I mentioned that I'm going to take Basic Fashion Styling in SoFA Design Institute? I'm becoming uncertain because I'm not sure if I'll be able to take the course load and the financial stress this will definitely put me in. I'm hoping that I get the financial aid that may or may not come by the end of September.. I'm hoping it will, I'm hoping it won't. I can make it work either way.

And I guess time's up, blogger babes. I'm leaving in a few minutes. Not so much content today, but I hope you enjoyed reading. I'll try and include photos next time so it's not just words.

What's the most common reason why you can't fall asleep easily? Share in the comments!
For some reason, I want to try live blogging.. Or journal blogging.. You know, the one where I just post whatever is on my mind.

Which is what I've been doing, but you get my point. I hope. Coz I don't.

Basta, I'll try and post about what's actually happened to my day. Maybe add photos? IDK. I think I grew out of the photo taking phase. I like to think that I just enjoy living in the moment, but I'm just lazy.

Well. It's the 27th of August and I'm currently rendering 5 hours overtime. I missed rendering OT hours. I used to render overtime all the time when I was still new here, and I used to rake in so much cash. That of course I spent on stuff. And saved for future shopping. I ended up using the cash to move out. Back then that was the peak of my life. I had a whole place to my own and I was free to do whatever I want. It got old pretty fast when I realized dishes and laundry and trash don't do themselves. I've adjusted now, but I think the state of my apartment is directly related to my state of mind. Right now it's chaotic. I'm not going to post photos of what my apartment actually looks like right now, but I'll put in photos of when it's pristine. How I wish I can always keep it like this. I do think it's more a storage issue rather than an organizing issue though.




Who am I kidding.

It's a hoarding issue. I just have wayyy too many stuff for one person. I've been trying to get that under control, but I end up purchasing more stuff that I don't have a place for.

Whoa. I really got carried away huh?

Oh well. Lately I've been reading Say Tioco's blog. As in reading it from the very first post and moving my way to the most recent ones. The first post on her blog was around April 2011, and I'm on August 2011. This girl is a prolific blogger. I actually did this with Kristine Roces' blog, and I was able to finish hers in about a month. I'm a prolific reader too, I guess. For Say's blog.. I don't know how long six years worth of blog posts would take me.

I just love reading blogs and seeing how these people have matured over the years. It inspires me to commit to mine. It reminds me that these people that I look up also started as small time bloggers and now they have made their own marks in the online community. So yes, with hard work, I know that I'll be able to get this up and running.

Hmm.. What else do I talk about?

Oh. I recently got my first ever blazer. If you know me, I don't really buy clothes. If I do, I get them from Ukay-ukay or Divisoria shops. If I do buy clothes from RTW, most of it are trendy clothes or fitness clothes.. or clothes that I can't have made to order. Call me privileged, but if I can get my clothes specifically made for me, I will have them made for me. So yeah.



I had my modista whip up a blazer and slacks for me because I was going to attend my first legit university event. My school, University of Asia and the Pacific, calls it Freshman Incorporation Rites. It's described as the first academic rite a UA&P freshman undergoes is the Incorporation, where students are formally welcomed into the University community. I know, I'm already a sophomore, but my batch wasn't able to attend the previous one so we're going to attend this one. I'll explain it all in a blog post about TIU and how it works.

Speaking of school.. for some reason, the last semester just went to the dogs. I don't even know if I'll pass any of my subjects. It's that bad. And I have no one to blame but myself. I'm still in the process of trying to understand myself and why I'm so out of it lately, so I can't go into detail about that right now. I'm praying that next semester will be different. That I can refocus myself. I know I can, and I believe having this creative outlet will help me.

I know this really isn't a "live" blog since this went up two days after I wrote it, but I needed to get yesterday's post up because that was already two weeks late.

So.. yeah. Thanks for reading today's post and see you next time!

 Let’s try something different..

Like, live blogging. Blogging on the spot. Right now it’s August 29, 2017, 1:08AM. I’m charging my Fitbit Blaze, drinking coffee and working.. or not. There’s no queue right now which is why I can write down my thoughts. I’m a customer service representative, and all I can say is that it totally changed the way I think about cashiers, waiters, etc. If I was nice before, I’m positively angelic towards them now, specially to those who does their work right. If not, well I give them a piece of my mind. I’ve learned that it’s not just about providing what the customer wants, but how you say it as well. I’m not saying that I’m all compassionate and understanding and peaceful whatever now, but I’ve improved. I still have my privileged Catholic school girl provinciana attitude though.

I can’t believe I’m saying this, but I actually miss brewed coffee. The coffee that Papa brews back when we still lived together. If I remember correctly, it’s a mix of Arabica and Dark Roast.. I can drink that without sweetener or anything. The coffee I brew at home tastes horrendous even with sweetener and creamers so I just stopped drinking it altogether. I now get my coffee fix from either McDonald’s when I’m in school or the coffee vendo machine here at work.

1:31AM – I logged a 30-minute break to stretch my legs and get my second cup of coffee. I use this tumbler from Starbucks which hold 473 ml.. Which means 3 servings from the coffee vendo machine. Yep, I’m that addicted to caffeine. I love how it’s all foamy like a store bought latte, but that’s what happens when you boil milk and pour it with a slow steady stream. I also took the time to play my favorite mobile game of the month, Bloons TD. I used to play this when I was a kid, when y8.com was all the rage. It’s same game, but it’s better. Even my boyfriend’s hooked!

2:30AM – Now I’m planning my to-do list for later. Here’s what’s on my list right now;

8/29 File Pag Ibig Loan – ETA 3 weeks – for savings Home Film Hauls Wash Dishes Take out trash Pack clothes

I plan to stay at the office for the rest of the week so that I can make use of the gym. I miss going to gym. I miss the times when I’m able to micro manage myself.. I really really want to bring that back.

3:25AM – I just realized that my outfit consists of a hoodie, jogging pants and well worn rubber shoes. You can either say this is a super fitness or super slob. I’ve had these jogging pants from Sassa and they are so comfortable I’d wear them everyday if I can.

3:34AM – As per my MFP logs, I have now consumed 2/3 of my allocated daily calorie intake just by coffee alone. If I could just drink black coffee, that would surely go down considerably. You know what’s funny? I think something is really wrong with me. Like, inside me. I think I have an eating disorder.. I think this started when I started college. According to my grandmother, I was never a picky eater, I was always eating but I never gained any weight. Then when I got diagnosed hyperthyroidism and was treated as with hypothyroidism, a shift in me happened and I started being super self conscious. I literally shrunk before their eyes in college and checking back I look really tiny in college. I gained weight when I started going out with my current boyfriend.. and I think I can eat with no problem at all, but when I start eating I don’t know how to stop. And when I stop I don’t know how to start again. I can’t rest either when I don’t know what’s my current weight or how many calories I currently have. I’ve looked up eating disorders but I can’t place myself in any category. I think it would be best if I see someone, but I’m scared of the stigma of going to psychiatrists here in the Philippines. Like when I had my first OB visit, it’s like the doctor was expecting me to blurt out that I’m pregnant or something and she was giving me stink eye. Then when I said I was there for UTI issues, she condescendingly asked if I was doing the deed. I’m not, but but if I was, is it wrong? You can say that I never went back to her. Currently looking for non-judgmental doctors covered by my health card.

Anyway, I want to start a fitness routine soon. Exercise, food, sleep, water.. all that. I’ll keep you posted. I’m so inspired by the blogs I’ve been reading lately which is why I want to try it out for myself. I’ll start on September 1st.

4AM – I’ve been checking out possible diets and I found the Oatmeal diet. Here’s how to do it according to diet-blog.com

Phase One

  • Dieters eat nothing but oatmeal for the first week.
  • You can eat ½ cup of oatmeal for each meal, which may be combined with a ½ cup of skim milk if desired.
  • Only whole oatmeal is allowed, not instant oatmeal.
  • Instant oatmeal and granola bars should be avoided for the first seven days.
  • Calorie consumption for the first seven days should be between 900-1200 calories per day.

Phase Two

  • For the next 30 days, dieters continue having ½ cup of oatmeal three times a day in addition to their regular diet.
  • Instant oatmeal is now permitted.
  • Calories may now be increased slightly to 1000-1300 per day.
  • A morning snack of a ½ cup of fruit and an afternoon snack of ½ cup raw vegetables are allowed.

This is probably the friendliest diet I can manage for now, so I’ll try it and see how it goes. I’ll also go back to the gym.

Am I looking to lose weight? Not really. More like lower my body fat percentage. I don’t like being thin and flabby. Yes, I didn’t know that was possible until I saw myself in the mirror.

6AM – So my hunch was right. There is something bad that’s going to happen. I’m basically looking at a 4-day suspension which may or may not jeopardize my schooling. I can’t deny it, there’s no way that I can say I didn’t do it to myself, because I did and the records show it. I know my fault, and I know what to do to avoid that fault.

Confusing? Let’s back track.

I made the same mistake thrice. In real life, that’s okay. There’s forgiveness, and there’s unlimited options for change and improvement. In the corporate world, not so much. Everything is put on paper and forgiveness is measured by a set period of time and hierarchy. Right now I have nine months to achieve forgiveness.

I can’t help but think.. is this God’s way of telling me that I have too much on my plate and that I’m spreading myself too thin? I mean, if this pushes through, I will get suspended, and in turn cut off my TIU privileges. Which would free up time and money for me.. Which can help me achieve two major goals that I have (being debt-free and growing my blog and Youtube channel).. But my status as a working student is what I believe to be my edge among others. It’s what makes me special.

I don’t want to lose that edge. Right now that’s what’s grounding me and making feel that I’m doing something with my life instead of just being a millenial zombie who works to survive because I thought I was strong enough to cut myself off from my parents.

So why did I let it go to waste?

I started with dropping a course and then being truant altogether. Now it will be taken away from me totally.

I don’t want that to happen. I feel like I have adjusted myself and done what I can.. but I guess it isn’t enough and I didn’t try hard enough and now I’m paying the price. I have fixed my attendance, my satisfaction, my efficiency, all the other factors. I was flying high until two days ago. I feel like I’ve shot down. I was already celebrating and praising myself and thinking of how I’ll reward myself and now this. Distraught would be a light term to describe what I’m feeling right now.

I thought I was finally reaping the benefits of positive thinking for my goal of passing my metrics.. but then it’s not? I would blog about this, but I don’t have access right now so please forgive my ramblings. I just don’t know how to proceed at this point.

Although I have my Plan B’s ready.. I would much rather go with Plan A.

Plan A consists of the Law of Attraction. I will focus on not getting a suspension. Not getting my TIU privileges taken away. Not committing any similar mistake. Instead, I will focus on being debt-free with a deadline — before my 22nd birthday. I will focus on getting 5,000 blog followers and Youtube subscribers by August 2018. I will focus on getting a Baleen pay-out every month starting August 2017. I will focus on passing all my classes and being on top of the class. I will use the power of the universe to achieve my goals. If it requires that I micro manage myself, make sure that I know where I am every minute of every day and record it, I will. If it requires that I start right at this very moment, I will.

I will start with envisioning myself a year from now. Where do I see myself by August 29, 2018?

8:45AM – My shift’s almost done, and I’m packing up. I’ve been listening to various motivational speeches and I’ll full of positivity right now. I sincerely believe that I can make my goal changes in my life. That alone is enough for me right now.

This is quite a lengthy post, and I appreciate that you’ve reached this point. Feel free to share your thoughts in the comments below, I’m always listening.

My mind runs better with coffee. Let's try something different.. Like, live blogging. Blogging on the spot. Right now it's August 29, 2017, 1:08AM.

Hi! Glad to see you, how are you feeling?

I'm doing good, very inspired to be honest. I've just had my sixth cup of coffee and I'm buzzing like crazy! I have written at least five blog posts ready to be published and I love it! It finally feels like I'm getting back on track and I'm very productive and it's the best feeling ever! I hope I can sustain this even without coffee.

Anyway, today I'm sharing with you my top 5 favorite Pinay Youtubers. This is in no order whatsoever, these are just the people that I love watching everytime I go online. As in, I get excited when I see they have new posts! I'll also link one of their recent videos here so you can check them out!

Anne Clutz

I like her because she's like my kikay tita who's always updated with makeup happenings and is just so excited to share her new finds with me. Her reviews are substantial and I usually depend on her for items I can try that works well with oily skin. Her vlogs are nice too, I usually watch her vlogs while I'm cleaning up the house, it makes me feel less alone. LOL


Anna Cay

OMG THIS GIRL! She's seriously someone I aspire to. I feel like if you want to be successful on Youtube, Anna would be the best role model. I love watching her videos from the very start up to where is now because I can really see her growth and how she has improved. Her personality is also very endearing. She's the rich-rich kind of girl, like, she doesn't feel the need to prove that she's rich, she just is and she just shows her true self. No pretentions at all and that why I love her. She has a lot of variety too.

Ana Victorino

I've been a fan of her since day one. I love how concise her makeup tutorials are and how she always does something creative. When I saw her posting again, I was so happy because I really missed watching her videos. She's literally a chameleon and I get most of my makeup inspirations from her because I think we have similar features (big eyes and lips). Her tutorials are always quick and easy to follow, and the looks always come out very polished. I know how it is to film videos like hers and I admire her for making it information packed but still quick. As I said, concise.


Haley Dasovich

If I need a confidence booster, I watch her and her brother, Wil Dasovich. They just inspire me to do more and do better. They show me that I can achieve what I want, but I have to absolutely go for it. I have to fuel my goals with passion and perseverance. I love her Youtube growth story too. It just shows that with the right mindset, you can do anything and I love that she's living proof.
Haley and Wil, by the one in a million chance that you're reading this, I hope that you know that you two are awesome people. What you're going through right now is a challenge I know you'll be able to survive.

Kris Lumagui

If you need a dose of energy, check this girl out! She's fun, fierce and talented. I love that everytime she films, even the simplest videos, her looks are creative. It shows that her videos are well planned and thought out, and I like that. We're also friends on Facebook, and I love that she answers private messages and comments. It makes fan girling about her really easy and it makes me feel valued. Like, the personal touch that mainstream celebrities sometimes lack. Congratulations on your pregnancy, Ate Kris!

And those are my top five favorite Pinay Youtubers! I know, the first three literally have the same name, but they have vastly different personalities, which is super cool in my opinion.
Maybe next time I'll post about my top five foreign Youtubers, but I haven't watched a lot of foreign Youtubers lately because I just didn't feel like it.

But enough blabbing.

Thank you so much for reading and do let me know who your favorites are in the comments below!
Hi everyone! I'm so sorry for missing more than a week of blogging (and just when I said I'll be pushing to commit myself), but I have a very good reason.

I got invited (volunteered) to a 3-day hairstyling workshop!




Mich Molina, a MUD trained makeup artist from Baguio (a damn good one at that), posted on Facebook about needing someone for her hairstyling workshop. I messaged her, saying I was interested, and the rest was history.







The workshop was Sir Marvin Lee Eustaquio's brain child, and let me tell you, it was brimming with knowledge, tips and tricks. Why wouldn't it be? Sir Marvin was trained under Ricky Reyes and Bambbi Fuentes, and he's been in the industry for 18 years. It's not just talent and expertise, but he's passionate about hairstyling as well.

It's been four years since my last modelling gig of any sort, and let me tell you, I was super nervous about the whole thing. I really didn't know what to expect. The mood was different, I didn't know anyone, and I don't know the place. Thankfully, Mich was very accommodating and she definitely has a talent of putting people at ease. I was able to bond and connect with her quickly.




While waiting for the workshop to start, we talked about makeup and she shared that her goal as a makeup artist is not to transform the person, but to enhance their features and show them they don't need to change to be beautiful. It's definitely different from today's trend of Instagram brows and sharp contours, and that's what sets her apart.

She also shared that this was the first time she's going to try hairstyling, because it wasn't her thing. And then here I am, with my hip length hair. Managing my hair was definitely a challenge, but her willingness to learn (and Sir Marvin's expert advise) carried us through.





The first day was all about the blow drying technique and hair setting. I really couldn't share the details about it, because we, the models, hung out in a separate room while the lecture was going on. I also don't have much photos from that day because I was still shy about blogging about the event.

I can't blow dry or roll hair to save my life, let alone with technique, but Mich was a pro. It took us a bit of time because, um, my hair. Next was hair setting, and I learned that rollers aren't really for curls, but for volume. You learn something new everyday.




The next day was all about proper hair curling. Yes, there are certain techniques for every kind of curl, and there are names for each curl. Mich was able to pick up the technique quickly, and was able to refine it by practice. Too much hair I guess lol.




They were also taught how make bridal updos, and due to my hair situation, this is what Mich came up with.I absolutely love the "messy" vibe of the updo, I feel like it makes it look so effortless.




If I was able to pick up a lot of techniques just by watching, I'm pretty sure the attendees were able to learn so much more because Sir Marvin was very hands-on during the practicum. He was checking on everyone and answering even the simplest questions.



One thing that surprised me is that I can look good with a middle part. Like, the middle part, pin straight hair that I see on celebrities. I took a lot of selfies because I was so satisfied with how my hair looked like. It was definitely a #hairgoals moment.




By the third and last day, I was comfortable enough to film and I was able to put together a short video.



The last day was when the students had to do everything from start to finish -- blow dry, roller set, curls/straighten, and do a hairstyle of their own.




Mich did an Ariana Grande inspired hairstyle on me and I loved it. It was simple and elegant. She even made my bleach and damaged hair look healthy and that's no mean feat. These are screenshots from her Instagram account.




All in all, I consider this a great opportunity and I would love to do this again (maybe a haircutting workshop next time? JUST KIDDING! I'm not ready to cut my hair!)

I'd like to thank Mich Molina and Sir Marvin, they are truly talented and passionate individuals, with genuine love for what they do.

Thank you for reigniting my love of dressing up and experimenting with looks.





Here are more pictures, this time with my co-models.








Here are Hairstyling by: MLE's contact details. I greatly recommend Mich and Sir Marvin if you have any occasions and you'd like to become the best versions of yourselves!


What do you think of this post? It's my first legit event blog post and I greatly appreciate feedback. and Let me know in the comments below!